~Pathetic

PATHETIC

Wow... I guess my last post had really discouraged me huh? A whole month since my last post? I guess that's understandable considering the fact that my life has been completely boring this last month.

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I used to look forward to Thursday nights when we'd go up to Plush and man the cafe for my brother, but now even that's no longer. At least for the summer. The open mic night has been postponed... for how long, who knows.

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Remember when you were a kid, in school and summer actually had a real meaning behind it? No school and playing all day long. The funny thing is, now that seems pretty boring. It's a sad world when you have no friends... or at least friends who work all day long. God, I really need to get a life.

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The other night we were at Norm's and Michelle and I were talking and we were saying how much it sucks that we pretty much missed out on life... we completely missed out on our 20's, and now here we are in our early 30's, pretty much bored with life. She's looking forward to gettiing married and having kids, but me? I'm not even looking forward to that anymore. I definitely don't want kids and marriage isn't really something I have to have. It would just be nice to have someone special, you know?

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It's the special part that'll get you every time.

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Wow... am I really 32 years old? Remember back in the day when you'd say I'm 12 and a half? Now a days the half way mark only reminds you that you'll be another digit older. My birthday is in December, so when it hits July for me I always think to myself, oh man, I've hit the halfway mark. It's always July that lets me know, before I know it December will be here, and quick too. Much too quick for me.

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I really don't mind aging, that's not the thing that bothers me. I'm definitely not one of those women who'll be celebrating their 29th birthday for the next 10 years. I'll gladly turn 33, it's just the fact that I'm turning 33 and my life is basically the same as it was when I was 18. That's the thing that bothers me, except now I'm a tad bit more pathetic.

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When my mom always tells me that she's proud of her kids I think, what have I done to make you proud? There's nothing. I mean my brother has Plush Cafe and Design Lab, you know? He worked hard for the majority of his life and finally has his dream where he and his wife work hard. My sister has been married for 16 years and she has devoted her life to her husband and their 5 kids. Not everyone can be a great mother to 5 kids and a loving and supportive wife to a husband.

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Then there's me. What have I done? Let's see... I have a DVD collection of about 135 DVD's, a CD collection of about 600 CD's and my biggest goal right now is to conquer the Zelda: Majora's Mask game I just bought used from a gaming store for my 8 year old N64 gaming system. Even that I haven't played in a few days. My most prized possession is my notebook computer which in a very sad way I feel is an extension of me, which actually is very telling seeing as I'm ready for a new one even though I just got this one a few months ago.

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Oh well, believe me, there's much more to complain about, but... I won't.

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I HATE IT WHEN YOU'RE WRITING A POST AND IT GETS ERASED! IT'S SO FRUSTRATING AND DISCOURAGING!!! UGH, I HAVE TO DO THIS LATER!

~The Survey

THE SURVEY

Name:	cherokee
Birthday:	12/11
Birthplace:	Riverside
Current Location:	Riverside
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	5'4"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right handed unless I'm typing (ha!)
Your Heritage:	so many mixed in there, African, Irish, Indian to name a few
The Shoes You Wore Today:	black flip flops
Your Weakness:	uh...
Your Fears:	too personal
Your Perfect Pizza:	thin crust, extra cheese, onions, green peppers, mushrooms, and sausage topped with parmesan cheese and tobasco
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	meet great man, would say man of my dreams, but he doesn't exist outside of my book.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	don't instant message much
Thoughts First Waking Up:	gotta pee
Your Best Physical Feature:	lips
Your Bedtime:	5 a.m.
Your Most Missed Memory:	don't know... it's missed.
Pepsi or Coke:	diet pepsi over diet coke, coke over pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King (better salads, fries and the Whopper!)
Single or Group Dates:	either
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate (all the way)
Cappuccino or Coffee:	neither
Do you Smoke:	NOOOO
Do you Swear:	no
Do you Sing:	try to
Do you Shower Daily:	nope, nightly ha!, just kidding
Have you Been in Love:	no
Do you want to go to College:	no
Do you want to get Married:	eh... not a huge priority, would be nice though
Do you belive in yourself:	yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	yes
Are you a Health Freak:	NO
Do you get along with your Parents:	mom yes, dad... sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	at times
Do you play an Instrument:	no, not unless you count my brain, which could be considered an instrument of self destruction
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	NOOOOOOOO
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	no
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	yes, when I was little used to steal fake fingernails from Thrifties
How do you want to Die:	don't WANT to die, but hope I go peacefully when I do
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	more
What country would you most like to Visit:	Italy, or Greece
Number of Drugs I have taken:	number of types of drugs? 3 (back in my teen years)
Number of CDs I own:	between 500 & 600
Number of Piercings:	8 (4 in right ear, 1 in left ear, 2 in right nostril, 1 under bottom lip)
Number of Tattoos:	1 (left over from my teen years)
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	3... maybe 4
In a GUY...
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue, or green
Favourite Hair Color:	red, or black
Short or Long Hair:	shaved mostly
Height:	5'9" or taller
Weight:	doesn't matter
Best Clothing Style:	uh...

~Making Room For DVD's

MAKING ROOM FOR DVD'S
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Hmmm, just one minute ago I was so keen on writing a post, but I can't seem to remember why now. I guess in that short amount of time, while I went to the bathroom, I started thinking about something else... possibly much more productive, I could be doing right now, so all my enthusiasm for blogging just flew out the window... or should I say I flushed it?

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Yes, that is a great testament to my incredibly short attention span, but what can I say. When your whole life is movies, TV, and computers, you really don't need an attention span longer than 2 hours, or in my case 3 hours, which is how long it would take to sit and watch a Lord Of The Rings movie. I guess over the years my attention span just adapted to what my interests were... who says an old dog can't learn new tricks? Just call me Fido. (I only ask that the new trick not take longer than 3 hours to learn, otherwise I might get cranky and bite you!)

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Normally around this time, I'd be writing while an episode of Forensic Files (or some such show) is playing on the TV in the background, but not tonight. Tonight I'm listening to A Stroke of Midnight on MP3 over my DVD player, which is hooked up to my stereo. So that means that I'm not writing, because listening to another book would throw off my writing, not that it is spectacular even when it does have my total concentration or anything. I mainly write to keep sane... great outlet.

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Anyhow, I have to find a way to fit my newly acquired DVD's onto my shelves that hold my DVD's, and some of my CD's.

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When I first bought the black bookcase/shelf, I had mostly CD's in it and maybe 20 DVD's at the most, but over the past year, I've had to take out three whole shelves of CD's to make room for my DVD's, and put my CD's back in my towers that I had stowed away in the closet.

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Yes, I am aware that no one but me is interested in this crap... I guess I'm just silly that way. arf-arf... arf

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